As the sun slowly lowers down behind the blackened sky, our body meets. The light surrounding the room starts to melt away into the dark. I can feel your hand caress my face as crystal drops shimmers down my eyes. Oh how I want you, but I can’t you will never be mine you’ll forever be hers. You try to explain this misfortunate situation and you try/say things so that I can see, but I do not wish to see, I do not wish to understand. I am blinded by my own selfish thoughts and my own stupid fantasy but I am convinced that this is real, so this is my reality. Oh my love if only you knew how much your touch makes my whole body shiver, how your sweet, sweet voice calms my nerves, how every breath you exhale is more intoxicating than anything in this puny little world, and your eyes I can see something in them a certain aura that shows the blackness of your soul. It tells me many things, I can hear you pleading and screaming my name for mercy but your extralegal appearance won’t admit it. Oh my love you may not know this but I just want to say that whenever you are near me my heart starts beating triple times, how your smile makes me melt at your feet, and whenever you cry I want to take away all the pain/fear. I love you… I wish to say all these things to you , but I know I can never do that for I’ll just ruin your life and destroy my own. I want to hold you in my arms but for now all I can do is watch you walk away leaving me in this darkness once again as you go outside and continue life as if nothing has happened but we both know for a fact that things will never be the same again.
“ I love the idea of being with you, the idea of loving you; but, that’s all it is. An Idea.
— Maxine Dominique Marquez Dee
“ They say that us, women, don’t really know what we want. I say that we do; but, what we don’t know is if it’ll lead us to the right consequences and when we start to question, it get’s to a certain point where your indecisiveness breaks out.
— Maxine Dominique Marquez Dee
